My challenge today is to find 3 gifts in the 3 words listed above.
From Ann Voskamps "Count 1000 Gifts", one is to look for these.
I am feeling that the gift in challenge is simply accomplishment.
I actually did not want to tackle this task today of looking for this gift.
I was tempted to skip it, and then, I figured, why not try to look and
start blogging what came to mind.
By challenging myself to look for his gift, I am feeling a sense of accomplishment
that my day went by and I was able to see some gratefulness in just being able to do the task at hand.
~Now for conflict ~~~
I feel that I prefer peace and would rather keep peace than have conflict, but yet, conflict happens.
I am learning that through conflict, one is faced with the gift of truth.
I struggled with depression after the birth
of my fourth child and this is where I feel I faced many personal
conflicts simply within my mind.
The beauty is that God remained faithful during some of my most
difficult times in my life.
I am beginning to see that challenges and conflict may go hand in
my challenge and conflict were really quite related.
You see, at the time, when I was so depressed, despair was so
overwhelming, and dread was there too.
I was convinced that "I had no life".
This was all a big fat lie that I was believing to be true in my life, in my mind.
I was challenged, I was at a conflict, of what to believe in my life.
It was simply all a matter of beginning to know what the "Truth" was.
The truth is that I do have life, life in Jesus, that my belief of having no life and repeating those
words with such self pity, created a battle within myself.
I had to give up the self -pity, turn to God, look for Him to lead me and tell me the Truth about
myself and my life.
Hence, Freedom was born, freedom in Christ to live my life to the fullest with nothing
now but pure joy and gratefulness.
~ Change ~
Hmm ~~ there again, the three C's. Challenge, conflict, and change seem
to me to be so closely related.
The gift I have found in change is gratefulness and gratitude.
My conflict and challenge of depression created a major change in my heart and mind.
I really was not appreciate of much in my life, or maybe, I was simply overlooking
the small things in life, such as hearing a bird sing, watching one's children smile,
tasting something good to eat, being able to simply see beauty in a cloud that is grey.
My change of depression grew into a joy I never have experienced before.
To me, however, this was all due to Jesus. He is truly there through every valley
and storm. Once one cries out to Him, he will help and answer every cry heard.
I cried out so much for Help from the LORD.
HE Saves, HE helps, HE heals,
My Little Eva who is my 4th child
Eva's name means Life
I feel it is a miracle that my husband and I choose the name
Eva for our daughter.
For after her birth, I felt I had no life, but yet, there was
a miracle from God, Eva, and her name, which means "Life"
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,
that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have